The Trendkill Diaries-Book
7:Interlude (Yes, I'm alive)
Book 7: Interlude (Yes I'm still alive)
"Where the hell have you been?"
These days, I see a message that resembles this every time I log on.
Allow me to answer that question...
Unfortunately sometimes real life steps up and kicks you in the stomach, and
drastically changes your plans....and other times it kicks you a bit lower.
The past 6 weeks of my life fall into the second category.
If it wasn't for the Hard Drive crashing, my car dying (forcing me to buy a new
car(forcing me to work more hours to pay for this new car)), a family member
having a near death experience, and God casting Alsets Coil at my computer
during a particularly stormy evening, I'm sure I'd already be 50th level.
As stated in my last journal, I managed to pull off 40 levels in 30 days,
without being twinked. That's a hell of an accomplishment for me. I know others
can do it faster, but this was my personal best. I'm not racing anyone, except
myself, therefore I'm proud of my little accomplishment. So, if I could make 40
levels that quickly, why is it that I've only gained 1 level in the past 40
days?
God, I could go on forever making excuses, but...
Life sucks. I've dealt with it. Now it's time to move on.
True, the past 2 months have been sheer hell in my personal life, but even when
I found the time to log in, it wasn't spent productively. It all boils down to
BURN-OUT. I can now admit that despite all of the problems around me, I could
have levelled more in that time. I simply lost the desire to.
I started to feel like I never wanted to see another tusker again!!!!! I mean
c'mon, how the hell do you guys keep killing the same things over and over
again? This is about as much fun as pounding keys on a calculator, and watching
the numbers increase. That' how I feel half the time...I've lost focus in alot
of ways. I needed a break and was forced to take it by the tumultuous thing that
is my life. Now as things get back to normal (God, that word "NORMAL"
sounds beautiful) and I look at the stats of my fellow Battlemages here on the
boards, I know what I need to do. I NEED to complete this template.
After a 6 week break from AC, I returned, and began playing my UA, Lotus, again.
Only in small doses, a bit at a time, easing my way back into dereth, just to
change the pace. I also began taking Trendkill along on quests with friends when
Lotus wasn't required...the poor bastard hasn't gotten out much up til now, so
it's a nice change from killing monkeys.
Why the hell are you reading this?
Sorry, I know that this is rather boring, and there's not much game content in
here, but I've had a number of people in-game asking me when these diaries will
continue. I figured "What the hell?", the burnout I went through was a
major part of my BM experience, as is the interference of real life, therefore,
It deserves to be touched upon in the diaries. After all, if people are reading
these with the thoughts of starting a BM, they need to be prepared for a period
of Burnout.
Why the hell am I writing this?
Ok, the truth?
I need to let the burnout out of my head, I need to forget about the past 6-8
weeks. I need to release it, so I'm releasing it here. If I make an affirmation
in these diaries, I'm going to do my damndest to live up to it.
This is my affirmation:
I'll be level 50 within 30 days, even if it F**cking kills me. That's August
15th, and more than enough time to do it, even with my reduced playing time.
There, I said it. Now I HAVE to do it.
Special Thanx to everyone who's given me support as I worked my way through
these past few weeks. The words of encouragement meant alot to me.
Also thanx to all of the BM's on this board. Although I haven't been active
recently, I have been lurking. When I couldn't play, I could at least live
vicariously through all of you.
---------------CONGRATULATIONS!!!---------------------
To all of the guys who have made level 50+, and Thank You for the inspiration to
continue.
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